My heroine

"The drugs begin to peak. A smile of joy arrives in me. But sedation changes to panic and nausea, and breath starts to shorten and heart beat pounds softer. You wont try to save me! you just want to hurt me and leave me desperate! You taught my heart, a sense i never knew i had I can forget the times I was lost and depressed from the awful truth, how do you do it? you're my heroine!!
You wont leave me alone, chisel my heart out of stone, i give in every time. you taught my heart a sense i never knew i had I can forget the times I was lost and depressed from the awful truth, how do you do it? you're my heroine!
I bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself, I bet you believe that I'm better off with you than some one else.
Your face arrives again. all hope I had becomes surreal. But under your covers more torture than pleasure and just past you lips theres more anger than laughter. NOT NOW OR FOREVER WILL I EVER CHANGE YOU I KNOW THAT TO GO ON I BREAK YOU MY HABIT!!
I will save myself."