My letter to you

I never thought I'd say this but, I'm leaving. You told me you'd protect me and keep me safe and more importantly you'd never hurt me...you lied. I remember the first time we met. The anticipation of our first intimate encounter gave me the chills and then you embraced me with warmth all the way from the bottom of my feet, to the top of my head. Tingling, warm, sensual, Ecstasy that lasted for hours. Then slowly you began to fade. Your intensity and passion began to subside and you only left me wanting more. All of those promises were lies.
I lost everything for you. My family, my friends, My child, myself. I hate you but at the same time I love you. I can promise though that every minute of every day I will remind myself of how much I lost because of you and I will remember I AM beautiful without you. I AM able to deal with my feelings without you. I AM a person that deserves to be loved without you and I promise to expose you to as many people that will listen that you are nothing but lies.
I bid you good riddance. We are through.

coming out

I never thought I could have the courage to write this but I find myself at a stage of recovery where I am not so embarrassed to tell people my story.
I'm 28 and like I said, a mother a daughter a sister and an addict. I was 16 when I started to realise a problem but like most addicts I thought I could control it. HA.
All these years later here I am hoping my story might inspire, deter, or just educate someone about addiction from the person who would know it most. The addict herself.