I never thought I'd say this but, I'm leaving. You told me you'd protect me and keep me safe and more importantly you'd never hurt me...you lied. I remember the first time we met. The anticipation of our first intimate encounter gave me the chills and then you embraced me with warmth all the way from the bottom of my feet, to the top of my head. Tingling, warm, sensual, Ecstasy that lasted for hours. Then slowly you began to fade. Your intensity and passion began to subside and you only left me wanting more. All of those promises were lies.
I lost everything for you. My family, my friends, My child, myself. I hate you but at the same time I love you. I can promise though that every minute of every day I will remind myself of how much I lost because of you and I will remember I AM beautiful without you. I AM able to deal with my feelings without you. I AM a person that deserves to be loved without you and I promise to expose you to as many people that will listen that you are nothing but lies.
I bid you good riddance. We are through.
For whatever its worth!, I can tell you that we (women) have all been there at some point in our lives; the truth is, that not as many have made the decisions that you have! Be proud of your strengh and always remember to appreciate every moment you live because for bad or for good, it makes us who we are presently! Power to YOU! <3
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Blanca Castillo
January 1, 2010
What admirable strength, such admirable strength….
Women – What woman? White, Black, Indian, French? What? No Difference! But a woman…..
Such strength to give birth to her child….And what strength to bury her too!
Woman, seen as fragile, feminine, needed of protection, vulnerable and weak. Oh! but men forget! Thru a woman; they too felt protection, held protected within her womb before being a man; and so quickly oh, but so quickly they forget, if it wasn’t for that woman, they wouldn’t have become a man!
Men speak of their greatness in strength; but are the first to place their fists on women’s face because they felt cornered…..Their manhood challenged by their own woman’s questions, questions they feel by their own guilt! Their defensive behavior raised by their own actions! So they defend their own weakness by their own physical strength!
And yet be the first to turn away or shutdown when the rough turns to tough and yet not look back to who really has the strength….Their Woman! A woman! To keep on traveling that same path with their Youngs to face it alone! To raise and rise beyond our own expectations…to accomplish what to that man was too much! But yet, we are the weak???!!!! Women! Ha, Ha!!!
Well, Women, Listen up!..... We are the strength that holds it together; afterall, we are the ones to feed our Youngs’ mind, spirit, and soul. To daily hussle and fight within our own environment; Society, Community, and Circumstances!
So why do we continue to be viewed like the weak one?
• Because we cry?!
• Because we ask for help, ‘welfare, food stamps, work, housing, Section 8??!
• Because we question, what is right or what is wrong?
• Because we show fear and express descrimination!
• Because we SCREAM…and voice the injustice?!
• Because we live out our emotions?!
• Because we demand balance?!
Men! Idiots! We ARE strong because we face and show the rawness of our souls, fearlessly!
Because when we run, it is to run towards survival of not only ourselves but our young ones too!
So really men: Who is the “WEAK”? When it is you who need our womb to protect you? It is you who need our womb to reproduce and give birth to you and your Youngs? Oh! And our so called weakness to raise you and your Youngs too!
But truly strength when we need to stand by you as we are being dragged thru the mud as a result of your shallow actions; strength to stand up and face the consequences of your own burden; and then strength to Bury YOU or Our Youngs!
While you rot within yourself pittyness and run towards your outlets….
• Alcohol
• Drugs
• Other women…Another Woman
We are left behind to pick up the pieces to help you pick up yours while look at your back as you run!
AND yet, so quick to turn around and point to our faces about ...’it’s our fault you are weak!’ I guess maybe to a degree it is our fault.
You see, you ARE looking in a mirror when you look into our womanly eyes…
For there you find the strength that you so much desire to have…We reflect and show you just how weak YOU ARE, and again, we are the one thing you will DESTROY!
AND YET! ONCE AGAIN, WE DO RISE!!